ya Allah... I'm sorry !!!...

Ya Allah...!
it hurts when I have to let go the thing i really love..
it hurts when I have to lose something that  I really want...
it hurts, Allah....
it hurts...

but believe me, Ya Allah...
I will feel hurts most when I know that I have hurts You...
it hurts most, Allah...
believe me...
believe me...

I realize that I can never live without You mercy...
I realize that I can never smile without the concious that You are pleased with me...
I realize taht I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me...

I'm sorry..
I'm raelly really sorry...
For I have neglected You for long time...
For I have loved other more than I should love You...
For I have prioritized other more than I should...

Even then....
You stll gives me food to eat...
when I'm not supposed to eat what I shouldn't eat
You still gives me eyes to see..
when I'm not supposed to see what I shouldn't see
You still gives me ears to hear...
when I'm  not supposed to hear  what I shouldn't hear
You still gives me skin to touch...
when I'm not supposed to touch what I shouldn't touch
You still gives the air I'm breathing now...
when I have done tonnes of mistake..

How can someone not fall for You??
You're very nice ya Allah...
You're vary kind ya Allah...
You're great Ya Allah..

but I forget...
I'm so occupied with this world..
I'm so busy with my life..
I'm so so so busy about myself..

I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can i do that to You Allah..
I'm such an arrogant slave...
I'm not thankful to You...
I feel embarrased Ya Allah..
I'm embarrased...
Ya Allah!

but Ya Allah...
soon ONE DAY I will be meeting You YA ALLAH!
FORGIVE me on that day YA ALLAH
HAVE MERCY on that day YA ALLAH
SHOWER YOUR BLESSINGS on that day YA ALLAH
THAT is my only wish... YA ALLAH!